A Personal Insight...

Song: Strong Enough to Be My Man- Sheryl Crow

Couldn't sleep for some reason tonight so I decided to blog. Going to the cubs game later today with Tim. Which I'm hoping I'll have enough energy to get through the day. Life in the apartment continues on it's up and down spiral, and I'm still left contemplating the course of action I should take. There are times I wish I would've waited to move into a one bedroom apartment, but I'm certainly making the best of this current living situation. If life throws you a lemon make lemonade. I've still got job securtiy which is a good thing. I've been spending some quality time with my sister lately which has been a really good thing. I've been on a much needed 6 day vacation which started last wed. which has given me the opportunity to fix my car which really needed fixing. I had a date last friday night which went really well. I'm hoping to have another one with her sometime in the near future, which will give me the opportunity to give her the bedtime bear that I won at the taste of lombard last night. As always feel free to call 630-653-1375. ttyl.

To say the least the month of may hasn't been very kind to me. Between the news that my grandpa is dying, tabby breaking up with me (after telling me that she loved me), me spraining/dislocating/gashing my right foot, and a tight financial month it has certaintly been trying. But at least the month is almost over. Mike is moving out in 3 days (thank God for that), and jon should be out by the end of next month. I miss having my own room. I'm still working at the hotel so yahoo for work. I'm planning on going to both church and college group at fbvp tomorrow so if you read this before then pray that I do both. Lunch with mom and dad tomorrow (dad's grilling) which I'm greatly looking forward to spending time with them and eating real food. I got my stitches out yesterday which has improved my walking exponentially. On another positive
note I'm in first place in our fantasy baseball league. Here's hoping that keeps up. Here's hoping for a good month of june. I could really use it. later.

I wonder how long it will take all of you to realize that I've posted again. Here's betting jon is the first to find out. My life certaintly seems to be headed in the right direction. My relationship with tabby is still going strong. I played my song that I wrote for her, and she loved it. So yahoo for that. I've been attending Harvest Bible chapel pretty much every week now for the past couple of months which has brought me a lot closer to God which was definantly much needed. I'm not sure if that's were I'm supposed to end up, but for right now it feels like the right place to be. Starting next week I'll be working more mornings which is a good and a bad thing, but I really miss seeing my family on a reg. basis so this will definantly make that happen. Life at the apartment seems to be settling down (finally!!!). I hope if your reading this that all is going well in each of your respective lives. No promises on when I'll post next, I guess it just kinda of depends on how I'm feeling when I sit down at my computer.

I got woken up about 10 min. ago by a loud thud. No idea what that was. But for now I'm listening to my mp3's with my head phones on. I'm out on my own which aside from having permanent residents and people being over til 6/7 in the morning is going rather well. I also have a girlfriend of now 2 weeks and a day. Her name is Tabitha, and the long span of being single was definantly worth it to meet her. Work is going well, I won the 2003 Diamond Legendary Service award at the hotel, which I got a cool placque and a $200 bonus check for. I've found that laundry is very thereputic. I do that about twice a week now. The house phone number here is 653-1375 so feel free to call it, cause I'm no longer using my cell phone. Pastor Mike or Carol if you read this I'm sorry for having falling off the face of the earth. I messed up once again in my life, and am too afraid to stand up to it. I requested off for Dave and Kristin's wedding so hopefully I will see you there.

Last night was the culmination of could've been a great week, but ended in the crapper. I hate when I let my temper get the best of me. So to all who were there I'm sorry. Sometimes I wish I could make the pain of those around me dissappear. But I guess life isn't like that. The countdown to the move seems to get faster and faster all the time, which as of now stands at 20 days. I really wish I had someone to hold...I wish it every day.

With 2004 just around the corner I've once again gone into self-reflection mode (there's a shocker!!!). I feel as if I've grown a ton this year, but still have a long way to go. I certaintly have been tested this year in more ways than one. But somehow God has pulled me through. I didn't finish my novel or my movie, or come even close, but as for the recycled New Years Resolution I've stuck with that. I really wish I had someone in my life that I could share "me" with. But as I often remind myself I'm now one day closer. The move is in less then a month now, which I'm both really nervous and excited about. But I guess those two things really go hand in hand with change. Jason thanks for trusting me, it means a lot. I have a challenge now before my b-day comes. I have to find a date for the all-associate Masquerade Ball at work. It's on my b-day so here's hoping I find someone to go with. Out of thoughts for the day, now back to Gundam Wing. ttyl.

Well aside from getting some cool gifts my Christmas blew. Highlights included naming 3 players on every major league baseball team, doing mulitple character personality quizzes. I've discovered I am most like Gonzo the Great from the muppets, either R2D2 or Yoda from Star Wars, either Frodo or Sam from Lord of the Rings. If you're ever bored www.coolquiz.com has plenty to keep you entertained. This is a Christmas spent at Oak Brook Hills. I still can't stand country music. Go figure on that one. New Years will be real fun as I'm working 7 a.m. New Years Day after having New Years Eve off. I'll be real tired when I show to work that day. Cause I'm most certaintly NOT missing the Next Phase New Years Eve party and breakfast at the Rauch's. Well that's enough complaining for now. Hope your Christmas was better than mine.